Don't Know Why

I don't know why I allow it to infect my mind.
Consume me.
Chew up my vulnerability and swallow my pride.
Let it interfere with every waking thought.

I fucking hate this!
I want to SCREAM!!!!
Screech at the top of my lungs
and cry all the tears of frustration and defeated-ness 
I've carried for so long.

In a matter of seconds I thought this

And then it was gone.

I didn't even flinch
As I passed by you with your