Don't Know Why

I don't know why I allow it to infect my mind.

Consume me.

Chew up my vulnerability and swallow my pride.

Let it interfere with every waking thought.

I fucking hate this!

I want to SCREAM!!!!

Screech at the top of my lungs

and cry all the tears of frustration and defeated-ness 

I've carried for so long.

In a matter of seconds I thought this

And then it was gone.

I didn't even flinch

As I passed by you with your

Stupid-ass-grin.